imagine.

hello again! i realise i have been posting a lot of happy happy posts, so i have decided. Today, i shall post a serious and emo post. okay maybe not emo, just more serious :D

It's scary, isn't it? I am already in secondary 3. I look back, and it seems like the days when we were told the ghost story of the floating foetus and forced to go into the science block to find a brick in the night; the days when we sang 'Carrot Juice is Murder' and 'Rippy the Gator' in the Albert Hong Hall with mr paul lim; the days when the music from the Gryphon's Lair blasted so loud you could hear them from the other end of the field... it feels like they were just last week.

Well it's not only the place that has changed, it is my mind too. Today when those secondary 2s came in for their prefectorial interviews, I saw myself sitting in that same chair just 2 years back. Now i am on the other side: the interview panel. Perhaps the exco then may have felt the same way as I did today. One of them said, 'I want to create sessions in which the teachers can talk with the students over lunch about their homework and personal lives so that we can be more bonded.' You really think it's that simple? Do you think all teachers want to do that? Look at that philo teacher who taught me DMP today. He comes into class with half-done ppt slides and with such a sluggish attitude; I almost wanted to walk out of class. Well. I don't blame you; I probably thought the same way back then. As I grow and mature, I seem to be seeing more of the complicated side of things. It's not all that simple and flowery anymore. Even friendships nowadays... as Mr C always says :) friends come and go. And to add on to that, my own one: people are deceptive. I don't know, even I commit that sometimes and I apologise.

What is there for me next year? My last year in Raffles. Well, lots and lots of things. Next year will definitely fly much faster than the past 2 and a half, and somehow, I suddenly don't look forward to life in RJC. Not anymore. I will definitely miss all the things I am experiencing now: the 'politics' in my CCA, which is rather interesting actually; the times when we stay up so late in the night to do our work and stuff.. It might be like what my bro said, RJC will just be like a place for you to study, unless you make real good friends there.

Why. Why am I growing up so quickly?

(okay is that emo enough? and yea i am growing up so quickly and YET. i am not growing any taller. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH > <) okay dmp tmr :D see ya folks.

p.s i really meant what i typed actually.

10:05 PM