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AHHHHH last day of January!! Oh man time really flies like a mad dog. I've gotten used to seeing my friends in long pants, some tucking out their belts (as if there's anyone to attract. -.- unless they are gay of course :D), some growing really tall, like wth Yensen is same ht as me now, perhaps taller. Sadly, I am not growing AT ALL ]: Grown only like 2 cm since sec 1? Guess my growth spurt's not here yet... One of the shortest in the cohort now. haha but of course, looking at things on the bright side, there ARE people shorter than me, and perhaps, it's not that i am short, but batch-mates are tall. Hm. Feel better now. Kayy i shall not worry about height for now.

Shorter people? There are a few ex-marists in the sec 1 cohort that i do morning duty for, and they seem to be quite enthu when they see me, but it so happens that every time that happens i will be in a very dao state or simply feel extremely sian and dun wan to tok to anyone at all. haha so they come up to me and say: "yo bro." Reaches out his hand, and i take it. Yea. Of course at that time when i am very stoney, i was thinking to myself: "haii. stop being so childish can or not. yo yo bro. diao." Now, come to think of it, wasn't I in his shoes like 2 years back?? Interesting huh...

Well somehow, I still do not feel that I feel enough for RI... Like if the buildings all collapsed one day, I wouldn't really mind huh. :p But one thing's for certain... I will definitely miss my friends a lot. Like what mr.mac said: what's impt is not the buildings or infrastructure, but the spirit that we breathe into it. So here's a list of what I will miss about RI if it were gone... (so sian rite.)
1) The people!! Esp my batchmates... '07 batch rox!!
2) The swimming pool!!! Cos it's my 3rd home...
3) Polo mates!! (though they are part of the people, i will miss the pantats hahaaa)
4) Jiao lian and Mr Lim plus plus other teachers
5) The LTs, cos they are the only places which remind me of my sec 1 and 2 life now... OH yea. plus the astroturf!!

Haha maybe a gauge to see whether I have enough passion for RI would be to see if I cry on the graduation day in sec 4. Perhaps the source of the problem is becos we know that when we graduate, we will merely step over to RJC, and we will still get to see RI. Hmm but walter told me that it just feels completely different and some other seniors also told me that life in rjc kinda sux compared to RI... ahha i dunno whether i will have different views... hahaa i shall work hard for this!!

9:12 PM

haa!!! 12am!! jus did a 'philo practical' with a friend of mine, talking about some dilemma thing between two CCAs... Used the utilitarian theory to solve it!! lol see.. how useful philosophy can be. As such, i shall psycho myself more. (aha. logical reasoning. but maybe, it can be a fallacy too. hasty generalisation mah.) hahaahaa. i am going crazy!!! i shall wake up at 3am again tonight, and i kind of figured, perhaps it's my biological clock that's going haywire. And hell it rained again today, so all in all i have not gone to east coast for 3 or 4 weeks, which is a month, which is 1/12 of a year!! zomg i am a slacker... added some stuff to the template too: userbars, cos they look pretty cool to me; still trying to find more! okay lar. It's 12.10am already. good morning!!

11:59 PM

haha let me crap up some stuff for my blog post todae. And um b4 that, I realised 2 things yesterday. First: I seem to wake up at 3am sharp every night to go to the toilet. Second: I finally proved to myself that music is played continually on the radio stations every night without the DJs, cos i woke up at 3am last night, so I tried to do something different instead of staring out at the empty and silent street, so I took my mp3 and tuned to 93.3fm, listened to a nice jay chou song and ya, went to sleep after that. [:

Now... for the actual blog post. Because we had RA lesson for bio today (and um, RA is raffles academy, not the ones you see in movies) and we were discussing mutations and a little of diseases, I suddenly had the urge to type out some of the ways the world would end, or haha actually, don't you find it quite egoistic when we say that the world ends, it actually means the moment we humans get wiped out? I mean, there are still so many lifeforms out there that might survive, so stop being so selfish and think that you are the only living creatures on earth fellow homo sapiens!!

1) Viral/Disease wipe-out?
Hmm is it possible that we can be wiped out by a disease or virus so powerful we can't find a cure for it? Well for me i think this may be possible... Why? Look at our friends in the forests. What happens to them when they catch a viral infection or disease? Ah. They die. They die because they cannot cure the disease and are helpless against it. THAT is the way things should be working on earth. But what are we doing? We have medical facilities, biological research down all the way to the molecular level, gene mapping, cloning and other advanced technology. When we catch the SARS virus, we try so desperately to save our fellow human being and succeed. When the avian flu comes around (and still is around), we find possible cures to it and save more lives. But is this the way Nature should be? Of course, the very first question is: what is Nature? Do we know what we mean when we always say nature's call (haha ace ventura) or like: "mm. let nature take its course." ? For me, I do not know the exact definition of Nature, and i am too sian to go find it up now, but to me, it means the way that the biological life, meteorological, physical, geological and chemical processes on earth have been working since its beginning. We should not interfere with how it happens, but instead, let it happen. Ya, just let it happen.
Hey, but then again, how sure are we that if we let it happen, there won't be a prophesied end to our world? Haha i shall not talk about that. Back to the virus. I know it sounds really really bad to say if someone is dying, just let him die. However, i really feel that was the original way it should have been (no. i am not evil). We have created so many problems for ourselves: overpopulation gives rise to stuff like lack of jobs, um the mutation of diseases such that they become more powerful to challenge the scientists working in their labs and imagine what will happen if one day the oil rigs say: "oi. we have dug up all the oil. and where's our alternative fuel source?" There. Why? Because there are too many people!! Why are there too many of us? Because we made it so. Why did we make it so? Because we are social creatures and don't want people to die. In other words, it's like playing a really complicated game with Nature and typing in a cheat code for mass spawning. Okay. I think you should have gotten the idea by now anyway. So i shall stop. Dinner time. bye! [:

6:38 PM

haii feeling very psychotic now... had a long convo wif one of my friends on msn, talking about what will happen when we all grow up into adults and the change in the world... felt quite uncomfortable thinking about it, so i decided to type it down anyway... what will i say of 'msn' when i grow up lol, what will i tell my children?? Then will we teens now still be using msn when we are working next time? It will be completely different... (waaa i can't take this spirit of psychonesss!!! listening to jay chou music somemore!!) where will i be living? will we still be driving cars like now?? and lol jus now passed by the water platform-in-construction... How will NDP look like on the platform? Life's a wonder really... okay. i am fine now!! hahahaa

6:42 PM

Back from OBS!! Here's my 'journal', if you would call it... Well it's not complete though, because readers do not actually experience it. Here goes the first day!

Day 1 - Introduction + Belaying practice + tent pitching + The Flood
We all arrived in RI at the usual time, all tired and excited about what's up for us. Many guys were just walking around aimlessly. Soon Mrs Ong came and me and Jian Xiong got her a mobile system to address us. It was a long wait till 8am before we actually set off for the jetty. At the jetty we waited even longer for the boats, so some of us went to pee in the bushes, since we were all guys... The boats finally arrived and once we reached there, Andy, one of the instructors addressed us too, and we started off the day with the Spirit cheer before breaking into our watches of 16 people. My watch was Da Gama and the instructor was this cool guy with a cap: Alex!! He did a one-man show throughout the 5 days, cos the other watches had either 2 or 3 instructors. He collected all our valuables and we all did an introduction. My watch had 2 foreign scholars, Jeremy and Christian. We were introduced to our storerooms, which we didn't really see much of for the next 5 days, since we were mobile units. Next up we had lunch. Waited really long for the food, but the funny thing was that: Alex was the only instructor at the collection area who was actually eating something. All the others were so serious and looking at their watches collect the food, making sure they divide it into rations for each of the 5 days. Haha so Alex was munching on an apple and waiting for Beck, the food IC to finish up. Had lunch in a circle. We were quite worried that Alex forgot to divide our rations, so we asked him. Guess what the answer was!! Alex said, "Aiya. You don't have to care about it. I heard that most watches cannot finish their food after the 5 days and have lots of leftovers, so the instructors do their shopping and grab the food haha. But usually you guys will be more than happy to let us take the food, so you wouldn't feel pissed. Take all you want lar." I was laughing like hell and so were many of my friends. Wow we had such a diff instructor who was more realistic.
Had belaying practice in the afternoon, well we just rope ourselves up and make sure we know how to belay. That was about all for the afternoon and in the night we were taught how to pitch our tents and cook. The pegs were especially small, so we lost one in the morning. Had baked beans+ rice+ sausages for dinner. We were lucky we had foreign scholars, so they knew how to cook proper rice in a pot. Whew. So much for the day. Now for the night of Floods.
1.30am: I woke up feeling a little stiff and felt some water at my feet. Woke Jian Xiong up and we talked to each other. He said this isn't supposed to happen (he's from npcc) in tents. Soon the part of the tent that our heads faced was wet too and the whole tent became flooded. I put on my windbreaker and walked around the campsite, peeking into other tents, only to see that they were having the same problem. Haha some guy was shouting: "OMFG what is this retard doing out here in the rain??!!!" Lol I saw people rushing towards the toilets at the storerooms soon enough, trying to escape the rain. Bryan followed Kieran and Shang Xuan down too, leaving me, Jian Xiong and Jeremy in the tent. I also left at about 2am, and saw Andy + another instructor walking up the steps to get the guys who cannot escape. He saw me in my windbreaker and said: "hoho, you lucky fellow." Oh no, the remaining guys perished in the flood.

haha joking. Everyone assembled in the Multi-Purpose-Hall later on to sleep. Well i wouldn't say it is a MPH, it's jus a stone slab of cold concrete sheltered from the rain. Had a bad night sleeping.

5:33 PM

So.... school has started!! Well I am still not quite used to calling myself a sec 3, and i guess most of my classmates would agree. Haha part of the reason should be because we are still not in our long pants. Many people are still complaining about their classes, saying they have geeky classmates and so on... I am quite fortunate I must say: i am in a class with another 4 prefects, all of whom I am quite familiar with; my class also has sean tan and kieran... of course there are people who.. um study a little more than us, and thus are considered the muggers. Shan't say who (i can't quite rmb the name anw :P) Oh yea. We have 4 foreign scholars from Indonesia; very interesting people to talk to... Actually I don't really mind who's in my class now, because I still talk to people from other classes quite frequently like during recess today, i went to the RJC canteen to eat with kaiyu, danfer, kieran, said, alimi, dixon and quite a few people. Haha I am not trying to suan anyone here, but I think sec 3 life is gonna be a thrill for me.

The first day programme itself was crazy already. I was in charge of war games, but everyone didn't kind of cooperate with me, alimi, zong yi, keng chee and weishen, so we started going crazy... (Well only me and weishen lar. )XD I was shouting like some mad dog, while weishen was killing his time by blowing the whistle hard. I didn't end up with a sore throat nevertheless, but just a little painful that's all. The sec 1s look damn cute lol, I wonder if we were like that too. I've got so many things to look forward to: prefects, OBS, waterpolo nationals, bio RA, teachers, long pants+black shoes, new friends, new blocks to explore, new juniors to (erhm. i shan't say bully) befriend and last but not least: P.R.O.!!! hahahahahahaa. 2007 will rock to the core man.

(sorry to anyone who read this post and feels that i am suanning you...)

7:03 PM