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Aiyohhhh. A while ago I was reading all the blogs of my friends, and it's kinda weird. It's like all the posts are emo posts; although some of them claim that they aren't. I want to post in response to a post by a pretty good friend of mine :D

It's been hard on you, my friend, for the past semester that is drawing to an end. I respect you, for taking all the nonsense that many people give you, and of course, taking it well. I think it's good that you made the decision of abandoning your blog, because I do find that blogging does distract you quite a bit too. Maybe I shall put this in more familiar terms: FTW, my friend :D there's still one more semester for you ahead, I'm sure you won't let all of us down ^^

So what does this whole blogging thing mean for me? Well I don't quite see blogging as anything big, just that I find that it's pretty fun that I get to put my random designs on haha. But why the theme of 'respawn'? It isn't just some random name I picked, you know. Well you could say that for one, it sounds cool XD but really, the last time i changed this blog's skin, I really felt that I have grown quite a bit; yea, quite a bit.

Since everyone's doing some emo post, why not I do it too hmm.

Many people probably think that I am some really high guy who seems so happy all the while, especially those who haven't worked closely with me before. But really, whether you know it or not, I think that I have a real deceptive mask on my face almost all the while. And to my friend whom I addressed up there, I'm sorry; I disagree. Life is just a game of facades, I guess. Or at least, I see it this way. It's probably because I am an 'I', which means that I cannot stand awkward situations with friends; I want to be on good terms with everyone. I don't know, it just feels real bad when I have to hate someone. And furthermore, when you openly hate someone, you seem to have destroyed any chances of working with him forever; and that sucks. So why not just give him a chance and leave the doors open?

Of course, I only show what I truly feel about some people to my closest friends. And it's saddening to think of how many of such friends I have. But then again, is it really sad? I mean, if you have many of such close friends, then what does 'close friend' mean? I daresay I have less than 6 of them, friends who will continue walk with me through this life. I have fallen many times, and perhaps this is a little too harsh, but I don't believe in trusting anyone with anything, besides my family. Ahh okay perhaps the 5 of them.. but being able to trust them does not translate to having to do so. Don't get me wrong though; I treasure them a lot yea ;)

I want to make my own dreams with my own hands. If I don't know how to do something, I will learn how to.

Dreams. This leads me to another thought. It's sad how you see some people destroy their lives in the midst of working towards their goals. People in class who study so hard for their tests, their assignments, and suddenly just forget about all the friendships forged, their school life, everything else. They want a bright future, they want a good life in the future, to do well in life. But when they grow up, they realise that the best part of their lives are long over.

For me, it works this way. I am not going to put my present life to waste while working for my dreams in the future. Look at the cyclone. It already shows how fragile life can be, and many other examples in the past have shown it too. And yes, Mr C, I think I do understand what you have blogged about :D

Let me end off with the following! XD:

Life isn't a download bar in Bittorrent that is only perfect at its end; it is like a song on Winamp that plays on for a real long time, a song that is beautiful in a different way at every different second.

I guess, this statement tells pretty much about who I am ;)

p.s. facil trng course taught us that at this age, we tend to be blogging about our identities and stuff. zomg. damn accurate.

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