imagine.

disclaimer: this post is meant in no way to be religious or anything, it's simply a logical flow of thoughts that i have. but still, please do correct me if i happen to say anything too off.

i was just wondering, what really happens to you after you die? for a non-religious person like me, i believe that it is something like a never-ending sleep. you just die, and there is nothing left.this was, and still is my stand. but previously i didn't give much thought to it.

how will it really feel to sleep forever, never to wake up again? will people be sad? science has taught me that the only reason why humans and any other organisms are able to think, reason and have emotions is due to the fact that the interactions between our neurons allow that to happen. and purely that.

so i figure, when the time really comes for me to go, i won't be able to feel sad, happy or anything else anymore. what matters more is thus, how i will feel before this actually happens. leaving all the things in my life behind, leaving this world with nothing, as i had come to it with nothing. and this also means that.. all that i possess and own now do not really have any true value in them. so why be angry that you lose something (your ipod maybe), since you are going to lose it someday anyway? if you look at this way, money and currency is simply something you sort of 'play' around with while you are still alive. and after that, nothing really matters anymore.

about the emotion i will get before i die; i guess, if i do everything i wanted to do in life before i go, or at least tried my best to do it, i wouldn't feel sad. think about it. it's just like leaving RI now, and knowing that i will never be able to come back to this place FOREVER, but you know what? i am not sad. i truly don't feel sad or anything, because i have done all i wanted to. in a way, dying is like leaving this world, except that there is nothing ahead anymore (unlike how there is still RJC after RI). it's the end of the road. and the biggest comfort you will have is that you don't have to worry about feeling bored or sad after leaving.

so in summary: firstly, i don't have to worry about how i will feel after i die :) secondly, if i have done all i can, or if i have tried my best to achieve them before i die, i wouldn't feel sad to leave this place. thirdly, there isn't really a need to feel angry about losing your possessions or money or living in poor conditions, because ultimately, what matters is you. everyone came to this world on an equal level, and we will all leave the same way. thus, whatever we own or possess during our lives do not truly have any value.

yay :D

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