hm CNY's over! before you even know it. this year's CNY seems like the fastest i've ever had in my 16 years. previously it always felt like CNY is never gonna end. and now it's over in a flash. sheeshhhh. maybe it's because everyone's grown up now. okay nah that cannot be a reason.
i'm afraid of what lies ahead actually. in just a few days, orientation will start, new friendships will be formed, old ones either stand strong or drift and crumble. i can already feel it. but i guess, i have to start learning how to let things go. afterall, this is how life is. nothing is constant but change. mrs maple once said (b.buttons! man i love that show), 'We're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?' sad, but true.
haha. i'm not that afraid of schoolwork actually, because i know i'm gonna go all out for that, and from what i've seen so far, as long as you try hard enough and not deceive yourself, you WILL get results.
there has been another thing on my mind. about how adults always tell you, 'oh well it's how the way things go in the grown-up world.' they tell you that when they think watching a movie is a waste of your time and money; when they think an ex-worker who came back to visit during a festive occasion is just looking for free money; when you spend too much time doing something you like to do but might not necessarily be fruitful etc.
and this is especially so for singaporeans. i may be incorrect, but won't it be so much better if we can all try to see a little goodness in everyone around us, even if it means we might be wrong at the end of the day? why must we portray everyone's true nature as selfish and greedy? even if that guy is a complete asshole, if you were to spend enough time to show him that there is still something termed 'kindness' and 'care' in the world, he will be touched. it might or might not change him, but at least, you have made an impact on him that will stay with him for the rest of his life, that there was someone before who was kind to him, and he'd pass it on. and even if you have to suffer to make him understand that, i think it would be worth it. because you will feel good, knowing that you have made that little change in this world.
why do we have to be on the move all the time? stress from work, from financial matters, everything. would it hurt to slow down, and appreciate the little things in life? a middle-aged man might tell me in the face, 'look son, when you grow up and start working, you will understand what we mean.' i know, i might not be in the position to say much now. I do think that stress turns people into something they are not. Money, possessions, valuables; they all blind you. At the end of the day, the result does not matter because it was never about the result. It was about the friendships you forged while trying to reach for the result, about the love and care you showed for the people around you, the sacrifices you made, and finally, how the entire process has made you a better person, not a richer person.
haha this sounds funny to some of you, but i really loved the video that someone showed us on the first day of school, as much as some portions were pretty ridiculous. stuff like, talking to a child at eye level, and allowing children to step over puddles, play in the rain etc.
i don't know what's ahead, but i am going to try, as much as i can, to be a good adult when i grow up. and not just shoot down the dreams of the child like that. you see, children might not always be the ones who are silly, but the adults who think they have seen everything. haha. let me end with a quote from the curious case of benjamin buttons (film):
Letter from Benjamin Buttons to his daughter -
For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're
proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.
awesome show.
OH OH. edit: in case this post sounds too emo, i'm not! it's just a thought :D
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