imagine.

18th May 2008.

i know it's pretty late already, and it's a long day for me tomorrow. but i think i really have to say this to myself. today marks the start of a fresh chapter for me. i don't want to look back anymore. i really feel that, like what pek said, one sided things can only go that far. even friendships. so i'm not going to chase this anymore because it's draining me very badly. what's meant to be is meant to be hm? a new chapter's unfolding ahead and i'm looking forward to it.

so this is a personal pledge to myself - that no matter what department or function or work that i may end up with, i'll do it to the very best that i can, simply because i only have one single year and that means no regrets. to me, no regrets means a 100% and nothing less. no dream or task is ever too incredible or impossible. one point in the goh's speech which really struck me was that.. by the time most people say that they want to start pursuing their dreams, after they have had 2 kids, a stable career, a stable life; they start to realise, with much horror, that they can no longer do that because other things are in their way.

i hope i can keep up with myself for the time ahead, and try my best not to give anything less than a 100.

it's just really a pity though. a pity. i guess it was my fault, but there's nothing you and i can do anymore. i really tried, but that's all i can do. if you don't want it as much as i do, then fine, so be it. this is kinda like goodbye then, see ya. i'll not forget those times though, they are still precious to me.

go 29ths council ^^ i'm ready and all set to go.

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